Found this on the same blog i was following.
Please understand how much life can mean to anyone.

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the two cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his class of philosophy students with a few objects on the table before him. When the class started he silently lifted a very big and empty glass mayonnaise jar and started to fill it up with golf balls. He then asked his students if the jar was full. The students said that yes it was. Then the professor took a box of little pebbles and poured them into the jar as well. He shook it and the pebbles filled up the small spaces in between the golf balls. Again he asked the students if the jar was full and the students said yes it was. Then the professor took a box filled with sand and poured it into the jar. The sand filled the rest of the empty space between the golf balls and the pebbles and once again he asked if the jar was full. The students answered with a unanimous YES! Then the professor placed two cups of coffee on the table and silently poured them into the jar and they efficiently filled the last space left between the grains of sand. The students laughed.

"Now," the professor said, when the room was silent again, "I want you to imagine that the jar represents your life. The golf balls are all the important things, family, children, your health and other things that you are passionate about. Things – that if everything else was lost and only these things remained, your life would still be good and fulfilled. The pebbles represent other things that are important to you, a home, a job and a car maybe. The sand represents everything else – the little things! If you put the sand in the jar first, then you have no space left for the golf balls or the pebbles. It`s the same thing with life. If you put all your time and energy on the little things then there is no space left for the really important things. So be attentive to what's important for your happiness and fulfillment. Spend time with your children. Take your partner out to dinner. Do things that you are passionate about. Take care of the golf balls first – the things that are really important to you. There is always another day for cleaning the house. Restore what is important in your life – the rest is just sand."

One of the students asked, “ What does the coffee represent?” The professor smiled and said, "I'm glad you asked. The coffee is there because I wanted to show you that however hectic and crammed your life might feel there is always time for a cup of coffee with a friend!"

Ever had this feeling?

"Whatever happened because of me"

"Every shit things happened because of me"

"Whenever there's something bad happening, it's all because of me"

Why is it always you?

And not him or her?

Every one's misery is caused by me.

I can hear every one blaming me for their sufferings.

Must I listen to every one's plead?

Why am I the unique one?

No one ever tried to understand.

When you feel there's finally somebody who understood you.

That person stood by you every moment you needed them.

I caused misery to every one.

Shout my name, blame it all on me.

Shower me with your tears.

Why.

Why..

Why...

I seem so insignificant,

when I'm doing something so meaningful.

Yet so significant,

whenever bad things happened.

Labels: To the people reading my blog;

Something that can express your feeling.

Think you're having something like that going on?

You can always confide the ones closest to you.

I understood all your miseries. 

God bless you all. (:

Thanks for the celebrations.

Thanks for the surprised birthday cake.

Didn't knew that would appear.

Thank you all. 

Or how can I describe " Life " ?

It is so messy.

Life can be a set of directions.

You can go up,

you might be push down sometimes.

Sometimes, you can even choose to go left or go right.

It is your decision.

Every thing is your decision,

you can break up with your shining armor knight,

prince charming, loyalty king and still stay happy about it.

Life can also be a mixture of emotions.

You can wake up on the wrong side of the bed one day 

and even chose to stay optimistic.

Or, after a long long day, you are damn beat.

Every one is pestering you, this and that.

You still got the chance to be cheerful.

Laugh along, join the crowd.

They pester you because they care.

Humans nowadays are so messed up with " Life ".

I believe is because,

they think too much,

they over reacted,

and moreover " Life " this days are so "mixed".

How should I say it.

It's like, so filled with jealousy,

hatred and so.

Why can't just you people lead Life the simple way?

Life is full of definitions,

it depends on how you define " Life ".

I do not know the real meaning of it,

and I can't say that the definitions of " Life " this days are wrong.

I still think there's still so much more to " Life ".

I really do not know,

how about you?

You think you know " Life "?

Share with me then.

Consider yourself in my shoes.

Every day woke up with the fear of not having pocket money for school.

Every day, the fear have already become numb.

Woke up, no pocket money, great.

Woke up, got pocket money, only that pathetic amount.

Today, I had to attend school from 12:15 PM to 6:30 PM.

Afterwards, I still got training to rush to.

Guess what?

One whole day, I only got a pathetic 5 dollars.

I'M SO FORTUNATE. 

I won't say my life is fucked up.

But my family definitely is.

Why?

Dear God, can you tell me why?

Don't stay mute please, God.

looking,

finding that someone.

I really need inspirations.

To be able to write.

I want to be able to write like how I used to write.

Or to write even better ones.

I seem to have lose touch on writing.

I've lost all my sense of directions,

lost it and I am practically senseless.

Where to start,

how to make the whole story really show its meaning.

Where should I start finding my directions.

Can someone guide me, please.

Bring me out of this eye blinding area.

I can't see where I'm going now. 

Amnesia I seem to have suffer.

Who?

What?

When?

Where?

Why?

How?

I don't even understand what I am typing anymore.

Could be just loads of crap. 

Well, if you can interpret what I'm showing,

that means you understand my feelings.

Please, do share with me. (:

Loves every one dearest to me.

I feel that it is a unsolved puzzle.

Bits and bits of hints here and there.

Who knows. 

Let it flow through me once again.

Let me be able to write meaningful posts again.

Let me..

I want to touch life of those who lives.

Let all those unhappy things off,

Let it all be gone.

Let it all..

Let go of the bad memories,

Let go of the bad times,

Get over it, 

Get over it now.

There's no time left,

Let someone love you again.

Let them be able to hold you tight.

Let them be able to love you right.

Give them a chance.

You won't find success without risks.

Let your hurting be gone.

Let yourself to start being able to love again.

It'll all be over,

Happiness will finally find it's way.

Finally..

Damn, I really need to get rid of this habit of thinking before going to bed.

Every time before I hit the bed, I'll think of stuffs.

Every time I think about stuffs related to Basketball,

I'll get all excited and couldn't get back to sleep,

and couldn't wait to play basketball! 

This is exactly what is happening to me right now. [29th April, 4:11 AM] 

-_- damnnnnnnn.

Shane Cheng Chee Fu, please go back to bed!

We should stand at a 3rd person's view.

Before we malign, quarrel, scold or hurl vulgarities at them.

From a 3rd person's view. 

We can see everything clearly.

Sometimes, we just overlooked stuffs.

Sometimes, it could be our own mistakes.

Sometimes, we never even give them a chance to explain.

Sometimes, we just scold them whenever we see them doing something wrong.

But most of all, it is our fault to scold them in the first place. 

Without getting our facts right.

That's the reason why, I always try not to probe.

Those questions I wanted to asked; those answers I really want to know.

Unsolved question marks.

So many inquisitions I have. 

We all should sit down take 5 minute and talked, communicate with our love ones.

All I ever need is someone whose willing to talk and communicate with me. 

Understand me, I do not need you to do sweet stuffs.

By trying to understand me.

That, means a lot to me.

Who is willing?

My story ends here.

Yesterday;

2:40 AM reached home after work.

Came home tried to switch on the computer.

But it kept going against my wish.

So I was damn irritated and fucked.

I really hope you'll tell me what's necessary

that you think it is necessary to tell me.

This morning;

Woke up around 3 PM. 

Woke up with sore arms(biceps area).

I think yesterday carried too much stuffs.

Those tables, 220 chairs to push.

So many cuts on my arm,

and who cared?

Saw you from the stage.

Something about the look in your eyes.

Something about your beautiful face.

In a sea of people,

there's only you.

I never knew what the song was about.

But suddenly now I do.

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand.

Reach out as far as you can.

Can't let the music stop,

Can't let this feeling end,

Cause if I do, it'll all be over,

I'll never see you again.

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights

A wonder wall of stars,

But the one that's shining out so bright.

Never really went out.

Other then playing basketball,

what else could I actually do.

Friends have been busy with their own life. 

And I am actually still aimlessly walking.

I really want to apply to a school.

But all is just talk no action taken.

Can someone give me a push.

Lazy to call up CMPB. 

This machine is super cool. When you push start right, there will be lights flashing inside. And there's a knob for you to turn to increase/ decrease the frequency of the volume of water. When you decrease the volume, the water like become slow motion. Damn cool.

Today as it was raining didn't went out to ball.

So I went to meet CSX instead.

I swear we swept every corner of Vivo City.

Went home and took photo while waiting for bus.

Sorry for being so "cold" with my jokes. 

So, I'll post the photos and stop typing.

She editted the picture.(:

                                                        

                                                        

She asked me to make funny face. lolol.